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Saturday, August 06, 2005

Am back home now in my comfy little island. Just got back from a little adventure with my mom. Well.. not exactly an adventure one might say but it was fun and grueling nonetheless. Wanna know what we did? Well.. we went to gurney plaza… it started off to be just another regular Saturday afternoon shopping spree with mommy. But it all took an unusual turn when I suddenly decided I should finally get the colored contact lenses I’ve been wanting to get. We walked in… approached by the friendly sales person, Leeann, I confidently (not knowing what I was getting myself into) asked to try on a pair of grey contact lenses. To cut the Looooooooooog story short… I finally left the shop 2 and a half hours later, teary-eyed and with a bad allergy (from all the poking, tearing, etc). I didn’t know it was that hard! But now I’m happy. Glad I finally overcame the fear (I think) of touching my cornea. Phew.. You had to be there… It was all too embarrassing! Leeann finally had to give up on me and she was taken over by her colleague Tan. I’ve always thought it’d be very easy but.. apparently, being the idiot that I am, I had to make things hard for everyone. Mom was really trying to be supportive. But I could see her patience thinning… can’t blame her la…I was quite a pain. But… Finally… after 2 and a half hours, I managed to put them on and take them off myself. Mom bought me a pair of hazel and grey eyes. Am wearing the grey ones now. Am absolutely lovin’ it!


Thursday, July 28, 2005

Well... Am back in KL.. I miss home already.. Yes.. yes.. I'm still very much my mommy's little girl. I miss my mommy...

Am now waiting to get a cab to KLCC. Gotta go get some shopping done. Will be leaving for Pulau Perhentian tomorrow morning. I've never been to the east coast before. First time. Am very excited but .. I do have some reservations.. I’ve been surfing around for some 411 on the condition of the island.  Can't wait to get into the water, sit by the beach sipping my pineapple juice and watch the stars at night... Saw some pictures of the beaches and all.. But….. I also found out that not all chalets offer 24 hour electricity. Which is equivalent to no hot water, AC, hair-dryer and etc. It’s back to the basics, baby. Wonder how I’ll fair… Should not be a problem. What  I’m terribly worried about is if the place is clean. By my standards, that is... I can sleep in the jungle, on grass and soil and all… no problemo… But dirty and unsanitary bath rooms/lavatories, I seriously cannot tahan. It would be perfectly horrible if I would have to endure 4 days of dirty bath rooms and lavatories. I know I might sound like a little princess to many of you but I assure you I am anything but. I just can’t stand dirty toilets! I’m sure everyone of you out there has some kind of phobia of their own. So please do try to empathize… Well then again all is not lost YET… I have yet to see the place so I shall place my reservations aside for the time being and enjoy the packing and the journey there. Oh .. did I mention I won’t be able to use my phone there? 1… there’s no coverage on the island and 2… I won’t even have a power outlet to charge my phone if my battery dies. Oh well… Always a first for everything. This means I won’t be able to call home!!! Mommy would freak!

Anyhooooo… wish me luck guys. When I say guys, I actually only mean Gracie… Coz honestly… you’re the only one who is gonna read this!  

 


Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Y’know what I should do? I should compile all my favorite verses an make my own book. It’s such a pain to have to carry so many books around.

 

These are a few of my all time favourites.. will try to post a few a day. Let me know what you guys think.

 

Sonnet XXX

 

When to the sessions of sweet silent thought
I summon up remembrance of things past,
I sigh the lack of many a thing I sought,
And with old woes new wail my dear time's waste:
Then can I drown an eye, unused to flow,
For precious friends hid in death's dateless night,
And weep afresh love's long since cancell'd woe,
And moan the expense of many a vanish'd sight:
Then can I grieve at grievances foregone,
And heavily from woe to woe tell o'er
The sad account of fore-bemoaned moan,
Which I new pay as if not paid before.
But if the while I think on thee, dear friend,
All losses are restor'd and sorrows end.

 

William Shakespeare

 

If
 

 

 

If freckles were lovely, and day was night,
And measles were nice and a lie warn't a lie,
     Life would be delight,-
     But things couldn't go right     
     For in such a sad plight
I wouldn't be I.

If earth was heaven, and now was hence,
And past was present, and false was true,
     There might be some sense     
     But I'd be in suspense
     For on such a pretense
You wouldn't be you.

If fear was plucky, and globes were square,
And dirt was cleanly and tears were glee
     Things would seem fair,-
     Yet they'd all despair,
     For if here was there
We wouldn't be we.

ee cummings


 
 


Monday, July 25, 2005


Just finished a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooog day at work. Call time was at 930 but my I shot my first scene at 3. Hmm…


Fantastic. I was sweaty, tired and dehydrated. Can you believe we didn’t even have enough money to buy water for the production? How sad is that?


I’m glad I’m all showered up now. Got my green Thalgo mud mask on now and my hair is still dripping (take a mental picture). My hunny just came up to me and gave a little kiss on my nose and told me how much he loves me.


I’m happy.. but something is missing. And if you know me well enough you’ll know what it is right away.


Whats missing is… well… very simple four letters.. four letters which most of us take for granted all the time. No it’s not love.. though some might think it be quite a suitable fit. But no.. It’s HOME.


I miss home. And it sucks not to be able to be in two places at once.


 



Who the crap is M?

 



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